My Heart

I have decided to blog about our decision to adopt.  As I first started to think about adoption, I felt overwhelmed, fearful, and unworthy.  I truly thought it was a "dream" or "idea" that would never really happen.  I read an amazing book Radical: taking back your faith from the American Dream.  This book opened my eyes to the complacency we have in our comforts.  God grabbed my attention in a way I couldn't ignore.  After praying about it, and "finding" adoption everywhere I look (yes literally! even doing simple google searches for something completely unrelated to adoption, adoption sites appeared), I believe that God is telling me to trust Him, be obedient to Him, and quit being complacent.  So now, even though I am completely unworthy, I am trusting God and being obedient.  I am beginning to get excited.  I am still afraid!  But then I remember Isaiah 43: 5-6  "Do not be afraid, for I am with you; I will bring your children from the east and gather you from the west.  I will say to the north, ‘Give them up!’ and to the south, ‘Do not hold them back.’ Bring my sons from afar and my daughters from the ends of the earth"   This journey is new to me and my husband.  The joy to bring a new child or children into our home.  I pray, Father I ask you to please, guide our paths, lead the way, clear any entanglements that may trip us up, protect us as we follow Your Word, protect the child You have chosen for us, but most of all Lord, Your will be done, not mine.  In Jesus name I pray...